Monday, October 28, 2002

Gah. I haven't posted in a very long time. I feel like I'm neglectful. I'm really down right now.

Hmm...me and Matt are doing great, but I have a nagging feeling that he's so much better than me, you know what I mean? I feel so incredibly lucky to have him in my life.

My bud Vic was on the Today show. She sent in an entry for a singing contest they're having...she has an awesome voice. If I could change one thing about myself, I would want to be able to sing.

I'm having surgery for my arm tomorrow. I'm not worried about it. I just probably won't be able to get on the computer for a few days :(

Hmm...I'm gonna try to update more often

Spewed forth by John at 11:01:00 PM

Tuesday, October 08, 2002

gah...I haven't updated in a while...I really have no excuse.
Tomorrow is our two month anniversary... :) And we're going out to eat.
I really miss him.
Grrr...no one is talking to me...I think I'm invisible. Hmm..I played Armada 2 for quite a while today. That was fun.
[sigh]
I need some mental stimulation. I have math homework I wasn't able to finish immediately after class...I need to study for my Lit class cuz we have a test on Thursday. hmmm....I think that's about it for now.

Spewed forth by John at 7:58:00 PM

Saturday, October 05, 2002

Have you ever thought of someone as perfect? So much that you treasure wach moment you spend with that person? Where even little things, when they might be annoying in others, are endearing?
When the perfection is marred, the silver is tarnished...the bubble is burst. What then?
Do you...Can you ever look at that person in the same light?
I don't think there is such a thing as perfect. And even if there were, I don't think I'd like to be associated with it. I would always feel inferior. Even more inferior than I already feel automatically.
My perfection is gone. At first, I was crestfallen. disappointed. shattered, almost. But then I realized that it wasn't fair for me to impose my idea of perfection on anyone and judge them by it. Who am I to think that that would be acceptable?
I know I've made mistakes in my life. I know I've avoided them, too. When did I become so self-righteous? It's not a good quality to have. I can't judge others, but I truly want to be the best person that I can. Maybe that is where true perfection lies. Not in the attainment of perfection, but in the struggle for it.
I don't think I've lost the perfection I perceived in my special person, I think I just finally saw him as a human being. And as far as I can tell, he is perfect for me.

Spewed forth by John at 11:36:00 PM

Thursday, October 03, 2002

I Am A: True Neutral Elf Mage Bard


Alignment:
True Neutral characters are very rare. They believe that balance is the most important thing, and will not side with any other force. They will do whatever is necessary to preserve that balance, even if it means switching allegiances suddenly.


Race:
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.


Primary Class:
Mages harness the magical energies for their own use. Spells, spell books, and long hours in the library are their loves. While often not physically strong, their mental talents can make up for this.


Secondary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.


Deity:
Azuth is the Lawful Neutral god of wizards and mages. He is also known as the High One, and is the Patron of Wizards. His followers believe that a systematic approach to magic is the best, and they strive for calm and caution in order to avoid accidents. They wear shimmering robes, and are well-versed in magic, as well as typical priest spells. Azuth's symbol is a hand with a raised, glowing index finger.


Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e- mail)



Spewed forth by John at 2:34:00 PM